Hello All, I've been just trying to keep up with my own life. As of right now, I'm going to summer school, for chemistry. I know, that I've ruined my summer and my family's summers. I KNOW, THAT I HAVE TO PAY FOR IT!, I KNOW THAT MY DAD IS VERY MAD AT ME. Sometimes I just want to SCREAM to let it all out. For those of you who know me, I seem like a carefree person, but lately under the pressure at home, I'd rather be at someone else's house or at school, and even though this sounds weird, I feel sort of relieved when I leave my house. It doesnt feel like home anymore, It seems like its a constant fight between me and my dad or mom. My mom, God bless her, can take it in stride, she's not happy, but she's not always mad. My dad, on the other hand, told me yesterday not to talk to him. I'm sure that will go well, cause I hardly see the man anyway. Take, for instance, what just happened. I was making a quesadilla and talking to my mom while doing it. I'm looking at her while im getting a plate. I accidentally grab a bowl and try to flip the quesadilla into the bowl, i start laughing and my sisters like "Yeah, you show that quesadilla!" My dad however, starts freaking out about me, how careless I am, and OF FUCKING COURSE MY FUCKING GRADES. This is enough to make me want to turn around and punch him in the face, But, Im trying to stay calm and laugh like my mom and sister were doing. But it can never be a joke for my dad, he used to laugh, but now that he has turned fifty, he's just a grumpy olf bastard. I havent told him that I love him in a week now. So the plan is to not talk to my dad at all. Until i get in trouble for that.
Till Then, You Lover For Life,
Niko
